You touched upon a very important point about current AI use, I think. It made me think we need more empathy for imperfection, rather than technology that would help us avoid criticism.

But I can see your point of not wanting to be rejected (let alone abused!). In this sense, if using LLMs gives you some comfort, I take my words back. Write however you like, just know that some people (like me) will appreciate your uniqueness better even when it shows in your mistakes.

I meant that this post sounds suspiciously like it was written by ChatGPT. As such, it makes me angry to spend time with something a machine generated.

I am not discouraging you to make use of programming or poetry to improve your wellbeing. If either of those help, do approach it in whichever way you like, AI or not. I am also sorry to hear of your experience of feeling unwelcome in programming communities. I can imagine how someone telling you to read the manual can be unhelpful and demotivating.

What I tried to say was that I would much rather read about all this through your unfiltered words. Even if your thoughts are not always perfectly organised, I would apprrciate them better than anything an LLM can generate.

Stop with AI slop.

I really like 0xProto.

Well, I cannot say for sure, but it does have some pretty common signposts of AI. For example, it has several “not only,…, but even” constructions. For example: “creativity is not an inherent quality of tools…” It also includes very “punchy” and not at all organic statements, such as “the tool is inert, the artist is alive.” Think about it, is this something you would ever write? I know I wouldn’t.

Too bad this was all written using an LLM though. I cannot engage further when I know the OP put this little effort in. :(

Hey benignintervention! Just wanted to say I really liked your view of things. I am so glad things turned out for the better for you. I am sure you still have your ups and downs, as we all!, but it is so encouraging to read what helped you and what did not. Even though this reply was addressed to someone else, it really brightened my evening to read how you handled things - for better or for worse. Thank you so much!

Hey canadianchik, your post touched me. It seems like you are overwhelmed, there is so much in this post alone to unpack. I know how much it hurts to lose a loved one. When you are so close to someone, it is very difficult to imagine life without them. We would do anything in our power to keep them close. Compound this with family who son’t understand and being lonely, and you’ve got a perfect storm! I don’t have any good advice for you (I’m sure others will), but I just want to send some nice thoughts your way. Even when it does not seem so, your situation will improve and your life will get brighter. I am sure of it! Until then, I am keeping my fingers crossed for your days to be light.

Hey Scubus, I found your comment and the discussions with others interesting. What caught my eye was your statement that you are probably “not going to be around next month”. It got me worried you are considering hurting yourself!

If that is the case, please reach out to any of your friends that you say do see value in you as a person, or family. There are also organisations that you can contact to help you deal with these feelings, if you would prefer a more anonymous route. I might be able to suggest some resources if you tell me where you live.

I completely agree with one other commenter saying that thinking about yourself as having a fixed, unlikable component is a simplistic view of human nature. The fact that you haven’t been able to find a romantic partner until now does not confirm it. There are so many factors determining whether two people who are compatible with each other come together, of which one commonly missed, but in fact immensely important, is luck!

When you ask people what they think might be wrong with you, they will come up with something, mostly out of their wish to help you. The fact that some cannot come up with anything is a further testament of there being nothing fundamentally wrong with you. Rarely do people realise they should actually challenge your frame (some commenters here did): there is nothing wrong with you, you are simply asking a wrong question.

This is not to invalidate your feelings of worthlessness of love which I sensed are sometimes too much for you to handle. It simply means that these feelings and thoughts about yourself, however real and strong, do not represent some objective reality.

Again, please reach out for help if you need it! Just from reading a couple of your comments, I could tell you are a thoughtful person, capable of reflection, which is a very attractive characteristic in my romantic book. I am positive there are many, many more which, I am sure!, are going to lead the right person to you.

I am sending good karma your way and wishing you the best of luck. 🍀