Ok, so I know I’m getting overly excited, but I am just so proud of myself tonight. We had a recruiting event for cross country and were invited to dinner / bonding activities with the team. Two women recruits were staying overnight in a teammates dorm. Our coach was going to be there for dinner/bonding, which was great as he and I weren’t really getting along the last two weeks because he apparently didn’t like that I am a creature of habit lol. But he and I were very civil last night during dinner and after team bonding.

During team bonding, however, the girl who was hosting the two recruits got really sick and was throwing up a lot. Unfortunately, with me being in the game room with the team, I was unaware until I went back to my dorm at about 8:30. My teammate felt really bad and she and another teammate were freaking out as to who would host them, as our coach’s back up host was unable to host and my other teammate could only host one.

For a few minutes I was thinking, and then I realized that I actually had an amazing opportunity. If I hosted, I could say I did it since nobody believes I would because I am a quiet person and have a single dorm, but I could also show my coach/teammates I care by doing this. I also had some extra space. So, at the last minute, I cleaned up my dorm, and texted the group, telling them I’d be willing to host one of the girls. I ended up hosting her while another teammate hosted the other. It is 5 in the morning right now, but I have barely slept all night because I am just so proud of myself for taking on this responsibility and finally stepping up as an upperclassman. Later we are going to breakfast with the coach/recruits, and I am so excited to see how my coach and teammates react. Normally I don’t really care for verbal praise but I think this time it is actually deserved.

The only downside of this, however, is that I have felt really bad for my teammate who was originally supposed to host the two recruits. She felt really bad and kept apologizing, and with me being the sensitive Pisces that I am, I have absorbed these emotions and so badly want to give her a hug and tell her it’s ok. But then again she has supported me so much, and I get along with her so well compared to the other girls on my team. She keeps me sane during the hardest times and is always there when I need something, so I felt the need to return the favor lol.

When I was first talking to the recruits (with the team), I was very quiet and didn’t say much. But when I met up with them later, I was a whole new person. I started by saying, “Nice to meet you, I’m Mary,” on my own accord. Then I went on to tell her that I’ve never hosted before and was a little nervous. She was super understanding as she was kind of quiet too and we ended up talking for most of the time.

Sorry if it sounds like I’m gloating or bragging, this was just an exciting moment and I felt the need to write about it.