I don’t have a lot of people to turn to, never really have… I’ve been pretty isolated most of my life, so I’ve just sort of muddled through by reading a lot and trying to figure out how to deal with stuff on my own.
But I’m not really sure how to handle this. I’m disabled and have been most of my life, and I haven’t really let it stop me for the most part. It gets in the way, but I brute force my way through. Often to my own detriment.
I guess I’m not doing as well as I thought… I’m applying for a disability upgrade, and one of the things I can submit is statements in support of my claim, letters from the people around me about how my disability impacts my life, and theirs. If this doesn’t sound like a normal disability process that’s because this is the VA service-connected disability process, rather than a normal one.
Anyway, I asked a couple of my closest friends to write something up about how they have seen the impacts, and it low-key hurt my soul to read. Reading how they have been negatively impacted by my limitations, and how they view what I go through has been the worst kind of eye opening.
And I’m not sure how to deal with that, or even where to look.
If you’ve got motherly or fatherly advice, if you’ve been through similar, if you’ve been through something else hard, please feel free to share. Anything helps.
100% for real. Over Thanksgiving, a friend’s kid was watching Green Bay vs. Detroit and throwing massive shade at a grown-ass adult also there from Green Bay. Kid was all in on Detroit (he’ll learn one day), so things got worse and worse for the kid. It’s just an 8 year old, right? At some point the kid got oddly personal and specific and just brutal. Stuff like “Yeah, well, your hair is like a balding baby and you’re bad at your job.” He wasn’t wrong, but…holy shit, homeboy from Green bay was genuinely shook by the kid just pointing out things he didn’t like about himself.
It’s normal to feel that way, because it fucking hurts. But it won’t kill you, and you also have a gift in that you have everything laid bare. If there’s anything you can fix or adapt or change, now you know. Some people go their whole lives without ever having that kind of honesty. Good intel, bad delivery is all. Take the hit, process, take a beat and figure out how you want to use it to bounce back in a better way. Very fucking easy for me to say. All you can do is try.
Oh man, kids are brutal when it comes to pointing out insecurities you have about yourself.
They don’t care if they destroy everything you are, they are going for maximum damage.
That’s a good point about having everything laid bare. It’ll be a challenge to separate out actionable issues, but at least I have somewhere to start. Thank you for that :)