I have always struggled with meditation. I don’t think I’ve ever been able to successfully meditate and the advice that people give me does not work.
I have ADHD (Inattentive), autism and OCD/CPTSD and I can’t stop the constant stream of thoughts, it’s like my brain has a problem with authority and is like “oh, you don’t want me to think? I’m just gonna think even harder” so folks advice of “just quiet your mind!” does not work at all.
The other advice I was given was “just let your mind wander” and that’s not an option either. If I let my mind wander, it pivots fast to dark, traumatic, intrusive thoughts and/or replaying every cringe and embarrassing moment of my life, so up to this point, all of my attempts to meditate have never worked out.
If there’s anyone with similar issues to mine that has been able to meditate with success, I’d very much appreciate some advice to help me along.


During my twenties I put in the work (years thereof, although some results came within months and I still keep in practice, among other things it’s good for getting to sleep) and got a reasonable grasp of silence meditation. Generally this involved repeating a mantra for a while and then letting silence happen for as long as it would and then starting the mantra again, silence again, rinse, repeat.
It is hard for me to overstate how useful this has been for the rest of my life, I had intrusive, circular, exhausting thought patterns, now I can just will them to shut up. So peaceful. There are other benefits, but that seems the one most relevant to you. Key takeaway here is, it’s like a muscle, you have to keep exercising it, and there’s only so much you can do in any day that is helpful, indeed overdoing it, trying to make it happen faster, will just discourage and exhaust you, as it would injure a muscle, or it certainly did me. Just keep at it, to be cliche, it won’t happen overnight, but it will happen (at least it did for me, and it’s glorious).
Silence meditation seems to be what I’m looking for. I desperately need the intrusive and distressing thoughts to go away, so I probably should be working on what my mantra will be. I really appreciate this advice!!