Just something in my life is like this. I feel like I’m getting ever closer to it but there’s always half the distance to it remaining.

I know all the things about how to deal with that but man… it’s a hell of a feeling, mixture of being both tantalized and tormented. I don’t think I even hate the feeling. There’s something vaguely similar to holding off on an orgasm. Ultimate tease by life itself, except there’s no safeword.