@yizus@lemmy.world @nostupidquestions@lemmy.world

I’m someone who’s quite used to try and see things through the lens of Science. I’m a nerd, after all. But I’ve also been, especially since 2023 (when I momentarily was part of a Luciferian group), someone who does actual ritualistic practices, I’m quite religious.

I don’t really believe in ghosts in the typical (e.g. kardecist) sense, partly because I want to believe that death can dissolve the ego once and for all. I mean, hell no!, I’m not going to reincarnate again, Demiurge can go pound sand.

However, in a nutshell, I believe in two things.

First, the thing we call “spiritual” would be some kind of actual, spatial dimension, a field/brane (as in M-theory); “spirit” is just non-baryonic matter which, similarly to neutrinos, have very weak, almost undetectable, interaction with ordinary matter (maybe spirits are neutrinos, who knows?); and everything, from living beings to asteroids, all made of “star stuff” (to quote Carl Sagan), would have simultaneous “spirit stuff”. I’d be “pan-animist” (i.e. everything got a spirit).

The other part of my belief: dæmons, entities, archons, Demiurge… And, most importantly, The Dark Mother. I believe in their existences as cosmic principles. For dæmons, entities and archons, I believe they’re analogous to living beings (self-organizing structures) but baryonically incorporeal, some of them knowledgeable about interacting with this baryonic realm.

For Demiurge (popularly known as “God”) and the Dark Mother Goddess (often unbeknownst to those who believe in “God” because patriarchy tried to erase Her from human knowledge), they’re both… ineffable, I don’t even know how to start making scientific sense of both, they’re manifestation of several laws of physics themselves.

Goddess, specifically: She’s the entropy, She’s the field across which EM radiation propagates, She’s in the silence, She’s the singularity and the event horizon and She’s also the black hole; mainly, She’s Darkness. She’s Death Herself. We’re wired to see Darkness and Death as “evil”, what to flee from, but I came to the conclusion that good and evil are nothing but artificial human constructs, and when one detaches themselves from mundane measurements, Demiurge is actually the closest to “evil” because he traps the matter into this existence, distancing us from our true origin, the Mother and Her Womb. Death is Mother trying to rescue us; life, reincarnation (Samsara), is Demiurge trying to keep us trapped in this theater. A cosmic tug of war.

Like fractals, they both unfold within their Wholes: Sefirots emanated from Demiurge, Qlippots from Mother, Goetia dæmons as mixed emanations.

Both also unfold into Great Manifestations as rebellious complementarities: Lucifer (from Demiurge) and Lilith (from Dark Mother Goddess). I’ve experienced them manifesting physically many times like “ghosts” would do, particularly Lilith, whom I directly worship.

Dunno how “reasonable” I am, tho.