“don’t tell your children “I regretted giving birth to you” in a fit of anger… jeez wtf… even saying “I love you” 1000 times doesn’t undo the emotion scars cause by that one moment.”
My mom was (is? Idk, we haven’t spoken in years) a depressed drunk, and I remember one time, she was weeping about how if she knew how I would turn out (a depressed autistic kid), she would’ve gotten an abortion, and I had to sit there and console her about her regret.
This situation is quite different to what happened to you, but it’s the same in how it leaves irrevocable scars. I ended up having to cut off my mom, so all my wounds from her are old ones, but that just highlights how a scar like this never really heals. I think this memory will hurt until the day I die.
I’m sorry your mom said something so awful to you. You didn’t deserve that — no-one does. Maybe you’d have still been a “trouble kid” if they’d been the perfect parents, but because they saddled you with these unfair emotional scars, you’ll never get to know. That’s not your fault. All we can do is try to heal as best we can.
My mom was (is? Idk, we haven’t spoken in years) a depressed drunk, and I remember one time, she was weeping about how if she knew how I would turn out (a depressed autistic kid), she would’ve gotten an abortion, and I had to sit there and console her about her regret.
This situation is quite different to what happened to you, but it’s the same in how it leaves irrevocable scars. I ended up having to cut off my mom, so all my wounds from her are old ones, but that just highlights how a scar like this never really heals. I think this memory will hurt until the day I die.
I’m sorry your mom said something so awful to you. You didn’t deserve that — no-one does. Maybe you’d have still been a “trouble kid” if they’d been the perfect parents, but because they saddled you with these unfair emotional scars, you’ll never get to know. That’s not your fault. All we can do is try to heal as best we can.