I hate that I belong to this nationality, i hate the way I look and the way I think because I’m no different from most of these people who disgust me. It’s crazy how much I don’t want to be around these people, and at the same time I don’t want to be anywhere else so as not to disfigure anything with myself. I have no future, no dignity, no hope. It’s such a pity I wasn’t born in the ussr when there was no internet and everything was closed; then I wouldn’t have known that there was another life, I would have just cum in my pants from propaganda about the glorious Motherland and enjoyed all this crap, and everything would have been wonderful.
Therapy might help (serious and not joking). You can’t change who you are and you are not your government.
You are you, you are unique and special. The actions of your government is not your choice and does not define you. As long as you try your best to be a good person, there’s nothing wrong with you. Everyone has their bad and good side though, don’t let your bad moments make you think negatively of yourself.
Another note, like someone else wrote; a lot of people hate their own government and their actions. In today’s era, most (if not all) governments only think about their own power, wealth and money.