I hate that I belong to this nationality, i hate the way I look and the way I think because I’m no different from most of these people who disgust me. It’s crazy how much I don’t want to be around these people, and at the same time I don’t want to be anywhere else so as not to disfigure anything with myself. I have no future, no dignity, no hope. It’s such a pity I wasn’t born in the ussr when there was no internet and everything was closed; then I wouldn’t have known that there was another life, I would have just cum in my pants from propaganda about the glorious Motherland and enjoyed all this crap, and everything would have been wonderful.