Hello,
I have schizophrenia however you won’t even know it unless I tell you myself, I only have delusion of reference and delusion of persecution. I feel like people want to harm me or mocking me. I don’t hear any voices though which is the major symptom of schizophrenia. I am afraid of water and soap too.
AMA :)
Why are you afraid of water? Can you swim?
No, I can’t swim.
When I said “afraid” it doesn’t mean that I can’t touch or drink water. It just like when I try to bath I start thinking about how I can be drowned in water. so basically I am only afraid of water when it comes to bathing. also I can’t wash my face because that triggers the same thing :(
How did you find out you had schizophrenia?
I went to a psychiatrist and he asked me some questions like do you hear voices? and I think it was mistake that I said yes. I thought having thoughts is like hearing voices for example I remember things my father said to me in certain situations. also I said that I have depression and I don’t like to do anything at all. he also asked “do you think people are talking about you, or staring at you?” I said I don’t think people are talking about me but I often feel like people are staring at me and looking at me. he said I have schizophrenia. at first I didn’t believe it because schizophrenia is a very serious disorder and it affects people very badly however in my case I was mostly fine, it wasn’t affecting my life that badly however psychiatrist suggested that I should take ETC otherwise you will end up like those crazy people eventually, I was scared and decided to take ETC, I should have said no :(