I haven’t tried yet and I don’t think I will

Luckily it was a few strands but it was annoying lol. I was even wearing a hat!

It Happened to Me: got my bhole length hair caught in some pottery on the wheel

Lol

Everyone I don’t like is a tankie

Get on it, bud!

I drove 30 mins to Costco, did one lap around the parking lot and just left lol

Told myself it was okay to spend a little more than I wanted to on snacks and that I didn’t really need the other stuff anyways.

I think that was good self care.

Oh my god I’m so jealous! I have a shitty glass top stove and my pressure canner takes forever to pressurize, I hate babysitting it. I hope you enjoy it!

I have a stunningly detailed memory bank I just don’t get to choose what goes in it 🥲

Apparently people complement each other as a way to signal they would like to get to know you? Or as an opener to gauge if you would like to have a conversation? I thought you just tell people something nice about them when you noticed (but not their bodies or things they cannot change) because it’s nice to say nice things???

I did not get the handbook with instructions when I was thrust into being.

I would love to hear about tires and if there is anything I could have done to have avoided having to come in (it didn’t cost me anything so they aren’t losing money by explaining it to me) but I was not prepared for anything but basic niceties 😭

I don’t know if you read what I wrote but okay

We have lots of power, comrade - power to choose who we assemble and organize with. That’s how assholes in irl anarchist spaces are dealt with - choosing to not associate or work with someone who would do you or the community harm. (Don’t stretch this to mean I don’t work with people I don’t agree with 100% on everything, how and when you let people into your life can be appropriate for the situation - maybe I’ll show up to another groups event to help them with labour but won’t invite them to join in work I know they will just argue about for example).

The appeal to hierarchy is the joke here.

I’m listening to Ghosts I-IV in my headphones and sketching silly little guys for ideas for pottery decorations. It’s so nice and relaxing 😎

More reason to luv them ✨

Being a gentleman scholar? Yes, I think so.

LMAO people on the internet are the worst (myself included 😅)

I didn’t weigh it?

I weaponized my autism today to win that fight about the equipment not working (kind of?) but got some blast damage while I was at it.

If anyone had tips on how to be a stubborn, pedantic asshole without grinding your nervous system into a fine powder I am all ears?

In positive news I actually ate lunch! Go me!

I enjoyed this meme

Hey comrade, I read first reply that came up for me and got real pissed on your behalf so I’m going to reply without reading anything else. Sorry if this was already covered.

You’re not alone in not being able to express what’s wrong. It’s not your fault and people giving you shit for not being able to talk to a dr to figure out what’s wrong clearly haven’t experienced what it’s like and aren’t doing a very good job at being kind.

Idk if you are autistic but there are a few reasons why autistic people and other struggle with this:

• your nervous system ain’t right
• alexithymia
• issues with communication/being understood. If you browse this comm you will see many posts about it.

Bonus meme about alexithymia

I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 40. It’s AuDHD specifically. I was diagnosed and then “treatment resistant” to a whole bunch of shit from 13 till then including depression, Bipolar II rapid cycling, BPD, ADHD. Each time I was either involuntarily committed or most recently trying by absolute darndest to not end up in that position again. Every time is be compliant and take the meds and do the therapy and try my best and it just didn’t work???

The only reason I knew to pursue a diagnosis is my therapist being like…uh, you might want to maybe consider an autism assessment and the fact that I could afford it. It’s not fair and it sucks, homie, but I share this to get people who are talking out of their ass to shut the fuck up when they have no idea what they are talking about - making is sound like it’s super easy to figure out what’s wrong. It’s not.

The second thing I wanted to share is that I find myself in these awful spirals where I am sure I am a bad person. Like, because I have trouble relating to others I am somehow harming them by existing because I can’t communicate and empathize with them. Or I’m so burnt out I can’t do things for other people when they need help and that makes me basically a war criminal. Or even worse people need to pick up my slack??? I’ve been sobbing in therapy because I am sure I am a bad person and I don’t want to be.

I’m not sure I’ll ever totally shake that fear but my therapist shared the concept of open and closed systems to make me at least realize I am probably not a narcissist (look I know this is a can or worms but if everyone can just accept that I am not saying that problem who are diagnosed with NPD are necessarily bad people that would be cool). The important part here is that I was so scared that my prevention of self is so inaccurate that I am somehow harming people without realizing it and I’ll never be able to stop and now I think that’s probably not true?

Do you have access to a therapist or other mental health provider who has experience in either autism or psychopathy or both? My therapists have been able to adapt to how I communicate and receive information and have helped me express my issues and concerns and explained things in ways that make sense to me. Maybe you can find someone like that to help you navigate your concerns.

Good luck.