Be on my room. Maybe cry, watch 🌽 and sleep.

Therapy? I’m having a laugh. That thing isn’t a thing for poor people.

That means I’m fucked then. I knew it anyways.

Btw, kiddy placebo “mind games” don’t work with adults. Especially with messed up adults.

You don’t like my existence to call it “excuses”. Your ideas are fantasies

I don’t even know what that word means. And I don’t go outside, really, so that’s out of the question.

Nobody here knows me. That’s the point. And now you’re insulting me

Why? Is not like you’re going to magically fuck my problems away from were you are. Be honest, you think I’m worthless or at the very least a huge loser.

I have 1k euro left. No job, 35 years old. I wanna kill myself sometimes.

You don’t know anything about my existence. And yet you are calling me a liar.

Again with this. Skills, that I can use for a real job that I can use, aren’t free. And you need to finish school and stuff, plus being immigrant doesn’t help, is not like I didn’t tried. I’m empty and have nothing to offer, which means there’s nothing that can grow. YouTube? Dude, YouTube isn’t the real world. Majority of tutoring about getting some are hacks trying to abuse desperate men. I have enough shit to deal with the way I’m living right now, I don’t need “tips” from a rich creep.

That’s not true at all. Maybe in your country is, but not here.

Anything free in this country is worth nothing for the jobs I could qualify in theory. And again, this is not fixable, this is just me. Reading how to cook out or how to code (since this is seems the average thing people tell you) is worth zero for someone like me.

Me and my bro grew up in the same grandmother house. He got laid when he was 16. So, no has nothing to do, the “curse” is on me only. And me not wanting to use toys is a new decision to not feel like an even bigger failure.

I don’t believe in any wizard in the sky. And that has nothing to do anyways, many latinos like me are grown into stupid Catholicism and yet quite a few have already gf pregnant before reaching their 20s due bad sex ed. Is just be being unlucky, unable to be social, having no one around and being a failed adult with no job or money to offer to any woman.

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For me the idea is disgusting. I cannot do that, and again feels like I’m confirming my failure as a healthy fertile male. I already feel bad masturbating.

I’m functional and decently endowed (according to the internet) but it’s everything else in my reality and my “soul” that works against me

I’m sorry but I really can’t. I’m too old and weird for it, plus I don’t feel like changing, it would be like erasing myself, I’m not a bad person, but if nobody wants me then I’m screwed because that undesired individual is me and no one else.

Is not really a goal. I’m already giving up in things that I liked because I can do them anyways and doing silly things just to “be successful at something” if I don’t have an almost instant gratification I will give up. Because I’m not wired like you, I just can’t work for something just for self improvement.

I’m already giving up on trying to drive a car. I’m done.

You already have a partner. Is not the same at all. Not trying to judge you in the slightest.

I’m not capable. And I don’t have the money