It sucks. I hate it. And I hate that I have no other choice.
I thought I passed pretty well and for a good bit now, and there where no indications that I didn’t. I’ve been on HRT for over 1.5 years now and it has done a lot too.
Yet lately, especially at work, the misgendering has been getting worse and worse. Both from colleagues that knew me from back then and colleagues that are relatively new.
Why… How… What changed… I don’t get it. What is that people actually think about me. I know what other people think of me doesn’t change who I am but it’s still just such a punch in the face every time.
Why couldn’t it all just be different… Why could I not have been born the way I want to.
Edit: I don’t want to be trans, I don’t want to hold the trans label and I don’t even want anyone to remotely think about that. Not because I’m ashamed of it, just because I just want to live a normal fucking life the way I want to live.
I completely agree with you. No one sane would ever choose to be trans, if it were a choice. Which is just one more reason why it’s so obviously not a choice
For what it’s worth, a few years in to my transition, I reached the point where I realised I have no desire to be cis. I would absolutely choose to be trans. But it took me years to get to that point
Honestly not trying to judge or anything, honestly curious - why do you want to be trans?
Because I am. I want to be me. Not a watered down version of me
Yes! I hate that the world that we live in makes it so fucking unbearable but I do want to be trans. Being trans is good actually. I fucking love trans people and I would never want to live in a world without us.
I feel the same way. I made my most meaningful connections in communities of other trans women and if I was cis I just wouldn’t have that