

i am not depressed or anxious.
I still don’t like talking to people, because they are boring and really selfish. I like talking to people who aren’t selfish and rude, who are doing interesting things, but those people are very rare. maybe 1/10 people I meet is worth my time, and maybe 1/50 actually is enjoyable and fun to be around such that I enjoy their company. I actively date, and socialize several times a month.
the more i socially isolate, the better my mental health and mood generally are. I absolutely loved the pandemic those were 2 of the best years of my life. I haven’t hung out or met anyone new in two weeks now and I am in a way better mood than I was around the holidays when I had to do a bunch of social stuff.
it’s almost as if you should be friends with people who like you, and not friends with people who dislike you or whom you dislike.
when someone complains about how awful their friends are/make them feel, i ask them why they are friends then, and they usually tell me to go fuck myself. i don’t think i’ve ever dated a woman who actually liked her friends, so much as hated them and just wanted them to be jealous of her.