Mine is porn addiction. I don’t ever want to become a coomer but I think I’ve became that already a few times in my life. I shamefully have watched porn, saved porn images and visualized people who’re probably not as into porn as I was.
I really do wish to be done with porn, it’s done nothing for me. I’ve masturbated for many years and I feel like it has hollowed out my mind. I don’t even get that much enjoyment from masturbating as much and the porn hasn’t really gotten any better so I guess I can say that I’ve seen porn when it was at its best when I was younger and everything.
Now all of it is just loli shit, artificial shit and that’s gross or the fetishes have gotten too niche and unappealing. I look around me in porn communities and I haven’t found anyone worthwhile to speak to or associate with. Everyone is six feet under in porn that there’s no way for them out.
Benzos. Pretty convinced I had a minor seizure discontinuing that shook me awake with what I experienced as like a flashbang inside my brain.
Psychologically it was quite easy to make the decision to stop and taper down etc. as the drug had accomplished what I wanted from it and I no longer had a solid justification for it, but physically it was an endurance marathon, didn’t unclench my jaw for what felt like weeks.
Sleep was rare and awful. My leg was so restless I’d work up a sweat just shaking it trying to not freak the fuck out. It was like a panic attack that just didn’t go away for weeks.
Other than that I don’t think I’ve ever had any serious addictions, nor any psychological addictions at all which is what I think people usually mean by “addiction” as opposed to physical dependence, but yeah.