There have been brain experiments that suggest you make your decisions before your brain consciously articulates the decisions and reasons for them.
I’ve known people who I’m pretty confident make up reasons for their choices after the fact. But are they really lying if they believe what they’re saying?
The question is, am I any different than them? When I think about the reasons I made past choices, how can I be sure I’m not just making up shit now?
No, I’m not high. I haven’t had drugs in almost a week.
I hate when my family asks what I’m doing. I rarely know what I’m doing beyond a vague sense of what near future me wants.
If I’m cooking dinner, I’ll gather everything that’s edible, find whatever herbs/spice that I think might go with what I currently have and hope in the next hour or two something edible and/or tasty appears.
My sister gets angry at me whenever I answer “I don’t know” to a question about what I’m doing. I don’t understand why I need to have a reason for everything I do while simply trying to exist. Exhausting. Stop making your anxiety my problem…