Sorry I don’t mean to sounds like I have main character syndrome, that’s not my intent.
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I don’t only feel, I know it. Not just me: you, everyone here, all humans, living beings, every cosmic stuff. And there are scientific, psychological, spiritual, philosophical and political explanations.
When it comes to Science, our actions are just a byproduct of causality within a dynamic, closed system, an organism constrained by laws of physics from which the principles of chemical reactions emerge. If we were to stick to a strict, Dawkinsian Science, we’re no different than other dynamic systems across the universe. It’s all physical causality devoid of meaning.
In psychology, if Theory of Mind is to be considered, the mind is also a byproduct of all conditions in which the being existed and exists. I like to cite Derren Brown and his works, especially “The Push”, which perfectly illustrates how a person can be fooled by social compliance (I’m not just referring to the main plot where a person is brought into a gala auction and woven into a web of deception that leads them into murdering someone by pushing them from a rooftop, I’m also referring to the selection process where the candidates are tricked into standing or sitting at the ring of a bell). I also nod to the ending scene of The Artifice Girl where Cherry, in a talk with her creator, complains about how every choice of hers are inexorably bound to her initial directives. I could also nod to Freud and to how superego and id are fated to conflict through ego.
In spirituality, Gnosticism explains how matter is a prison crafted by Demiurge (Yaodabaoth) so Archons can siphon and feed from our suffering. Luciferianism and other LHP traditions seek to fight the tyrannical order of Demiurge and the Archons aligned to him, who are seen by Abrahamic as “The Father (sic) and his angels”. The Calvinist Christianity emphasizes the biblical verse “before I formed ye in the womb, I knew ye” (Jeremiah 1:5). Some religions, especially ancient, feature a counterpoint to this order/god, the Primordial Chaos/Darkness/Goddess (e.g. Taoist Yin, Sumerian Ereshkigal). Freemasonry’s “Ordo ab Chao” is a spiritual flavor of the scientific Big-Bang/Hadean Eon, where order emerges from this primordial chaos.
Philosophically, our senses deceive us (Descartes) but those very senses is the way we learn and become, we’re wolves to ourselves (Hobbes), society is inherently evil and corrupts its peers (Rousseau) as we’re prone to becoming the very monsters we vowed to fight against (Nietzsche): all of which are kind of pre-established principles ruling us, individually and socially.
Politically, capitalism needs no introduction on how it compels us to be a disposable cog in a machine whose lines “must go up”. But this doesn’t make other systems (communism, socialism, etc) less evil: every form of authority is a megaphone for all evilness inherent to us humans.
Even this reply of mine was predetermined, spiritually, physically, socially.
yeah, well…that’s just like your opinion man.
I thought it said Lotus of Control and I was 'bout to grab a flamethrower ready to burn some flower down.
If you tap it you get 3 free mana and a riding crop
FREE ME FROM YOUR GRASP, CURSED FLOWER!
No - my life’s not that interesting
No. I think my life is generally too boring to be scripted.
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Not really. A lot of it is just happenstances and inconvenient coincidences.
I do have some themes going in my life though that could make it seem that way.
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Anytime I get something good or things are looking too good to be true, there’s always something horrible or bad waiting around the corner to ruin that momentum.
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Anytime I am randomly crying or completely angry, it sometimes can mean someone I know is either dead or suffering as proven from the times I got emotional to eventually find an obituary of someone I knew who died.
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Irony loves to rear its head in my life now and then. In the past whenever I’ve said I never wanted to work at a fast food company, I ended up working at one.
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Anytime I am out to get one thing or do one thing such as a single errand, it always turns out to be the most frustrating experience ever. For example, if I needed to go out and grab one product I forgot to get or needed to get, I’ll end up having to store-hop several stores before finally getting it and during that whole trip, I’m dealing with dumbass drivers and even dumber pedestrians. As well as dealing with idiotic shoppers too.
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Anytime I needed something for emergency situations or to double-check something to be sure of it, suddenly the services I use are not available or down for maintenance.
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Currently, I’m dealing with a series of matters that consist of things requiring me to put more effort into them. Like having to double-click things for buttons that are usually one-click or fighting with things that appear to be broken when they worked flawlessly before.
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Is a parent or grandparent in your family a narcissist? That crud does trickle down.
Part of it.
But even if they were good parents, I’d still feel like its scripted because of other factors.
Because my “backstory” (I mean might as well use this word since I’m talking as if this is a simulated world), in general, is so fucking bizzare it doesn’t feel real.
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I don’t feel important enough for that. Same reason I’m not religious. People claiming a personal relationship with the goddamn creator of the universe are hella conceited.
the funniest ones to me are the ones that haven’t even read their books …like…bruh, if I thought a book had the answer to literally all of lifes questions i would be reading the shit out of it.
but the majority of these people claiming to be religious are apparently content to be spoonfed a verse or two every week or so? there’s something seriously wrong with that lack of personal agency.
they’ve basically given up their own free will for the deluded idea they can live forever
People claiming a personal relationship with the goddamn creator of the universe are hella conceited.
I’d say even prideful, you know one of the 7 deadly sins, often considered the worst of them and even the root/source of the other 6. The sheer hubris needed to believe you have a personal connection that others don’t is ridiculous.
Eh, if you believe that god is omnipotent then it’s not really hubristic to think that god can easily have a personal relationship with every living being, which includes you
Where do you think the idea of “The Fates” comes from? Or any number of other similar deities/forces in nearly every society around the world. That feeling has been with us as humans for a long, long time.
Last night I turned off a small metalic lamp that’s next to my bed. I then heard a tapping sound like a small dripping water hitting the metalic lamp.
I turned the lamp on. I saw no water. The tapping stopped. I looked at the ceiling. No sign of water. I looked at the lamp. No water. Turned the light back off. Rolled back over, and got comfy.
Tap…tap…tap…
Turned the light back on. Tapping stopped. Still no water.
Turned the light off. The second the light was off, I heard the tap again.
Turned it back on. Still no water.
Got up, got out of bed, checked all around my night stand. Checked behind it. Nothing out of the ordinary.
While standing next to the bed, turned the light off. Tapping resumed.
Turned the light back on, and walked to the living room. Layed down on the couch.
Light on in the bedroom. I’m in the living room. Turn the living room light off.
Now there’s tapping inside the pipes inside the walls. Totally different tap. Totally different place. Totally different tapping sound. This didn’t sound like dripping water. This sounded like someone hitting the pipes with a wooden spoon with the same cadence.
Tap…tap…tap…
But it always stopped when I turned the light on.
So I went into the bathroom, and took a shower.
Now, here’s the kicker. I live alone. I have no pets. I have no rodents in the walls.
The whole thing came off like someone playing a prank on me. Except that person didn’t exist. It felt like I was living some 1930s comedy skit. Some Abbot and Costello skit. Except this is just me, alone in my apartment, going insane.
it could be this one or another bug :
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Xestobium_sound.oggSounds like poorly soldered joints cracking to me
Except this is just me, alone in my apartment, going insane.
Username checks out xD
You sure it wasn’t just the light fixture or bulb contracting after cooling down from being warm after being on? Metal light fixtures tend to do that. Especially in the winter.
i think this is a common side effect of being self aware
little existential crises before getting back into life
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Not so much scripted as just I can logically follow where I was to where I am and infer where I’m going next. There’s surprises to be sure but there’s only so many way things can happen given the parameters of a story you’re very familiar with
A lot of your life will play out seemingly by design, but it’s just a byproduct of living in a society.
I watch scenes in Movie/TV where a character has a traumatic childhood and memory/flacshback scene, then I realize I have the same feel, so I feel like someone staged it, like my older brother is actually an actor in this dark version of truman show purposfully giving me that traumatic memory.
movies are meant to make you feel a certain way, to come to some realization in your own life. this is the point of all (halfway decent) art, somebody is telling you a message amd your supposed to figure out what the message is
Shit… which telephone do I use to exit the simulation?
ALL THE PAYPHONES ARE GONE!
Edit: Or do you mean like I’m supposed to stay in this fictional world and be the protagonist? Is that traumatic childhood necessary to have a good story? lol
only tangibly related to your question
there are some people who think conflict is required to bring about higher levels of consciousness, though that’s probably just a hierarchy of needs things playing out more often than not.
there’s this old jewish tradition uh…i forget the word for it, but basically the most sacred act you can do is teach someone else to be self sufficient. (whether that’s financially/emotionally/whatever, before you can seriously help others you must be self sufficient, therefor you should help others become self sufficient).
one way to do this is via stories, examining the stories etc.
but uh…yes, generally trauma is a prelude to creativity. people who don’t know struggle have no good/relatable stories to tell.
