For me: I’m still living with my family of origin…

It’s so weird…

I remember… okay I might have said this a bunch of times throught various comments but:

I remember in 2010…

When I first arrived in the US at 8 years old

And it was like November or December

And I was in Brooklyn, NY

And there was this huge snowstorm

the entire street where I lived in was covered in snow

My first snowstorm ever

That is a memory that is forever carved into my hippocampus

The snowstorm nowadays just make me wanna be a kid again

Its so sad that the passage of time destroys everything

I never really appreciate childhood when I was in the moment, until it the moment has already gone

I never thought of taking pictures to preserve the moment

I never did journaling

I never thought of future-me… aka present-me

I was just there…

And now I’m here…

okay I sound like I’m rambling lol

Like every time there’s a flashback scene in movies/tv especially depicting childhood, I just get this weird nostalgia thing where my brain triggers its own “flashback scene”

so weird

I want a fucking time machine

I want to do the time-travel consciousness transfer thing like in Travelers (the tv show)

I wanna relive that moment

Forever

Forever

Actually idk

I had no freedom in that moment

Not like I really have much freedoms now either

But I have the internet now

I didn’t yet have internet access during the first few months in the US

But idk why that snowstorm is like the most memorable “first impressions” of America

Anyways, back to the present

I’m living with family

But now its so… awkward

I sort of feel that nostalgia

But still… I’ve been through so much emotional trauma

Now we feel like strangers

Even though we’ve known each other for two decades

We’ve been together for two decades

I remember… vaguely remember… sometimes there’s like a snow storm

And this was when I was in Philly and I had my own laptop

So I’d wake up at like 5AM and check the school district website to see if there’s a snow day

And the I see the text in red banner.

The text that says school is cancelled

Like…

The

JOY

So then I told my mom that and then I just chilled on the internet for the rest of the day…

So AWESOME!

but yea…

oops I rambled for too long, I doubt anyone is gonna read this… xD